Thursday, September 29, 2005

A Stunning Poem

by David Wojahn

I heard David read this last year at VCU, and was thrilled to find it on infotrac.


The Kenyon Review, Fall 2005 v27 i4 p56(9)

Dithyramb and Lamentation

David Wojahn.



Its walls were breached; the people groan ... In its boulevards, where feasts were celebrated, scattered they lay ... What power have we now against the deluge?

--Lamentation on Ur

I.

PHOTO OF A BEHEADING,
CHINA, C. 1900

A problem of technique: the moment of death
arriving too fast to capture,
blood-spurt,

& the ax in upswing. So instead
we have aftermath, the parted lips

kissing cobbles, the hair flaring back, the instant
missed by half a second.
The vigil of astonishment,

the crowd that parted to admit the cowl & imperious tripod--lugged
by mulecart from Shanghai--of some anonymous

Scotsman, working the shutter in cool frenzy.
The torso
kowtows toward the pavement & rejoins its head.

Beneath his hood the Scotsman swelters, Apollo
at the kill-switch of the skull of Orpheus, the crooning silenced.

Later he will shake the ax man's hand,
his ally, his double, his cohort God.

II.

EPITHALAMIUM

The what what what of a helicopter gunship
frozen midair, twenty feet above the desert.

Fire One Fire Two Fire Three.
The chopper
180s back toward Baghdad. Target: "a terrorist

safe house." They have the spoor, the coordinates.
Nosing the ground, three heat-seeking missiles

like pigs' snouts to a cache of truffles.
The bride & groom have entered, their mouths full of sweets.

The band strikes up; the music crescendos,
the wedding couple riding on a wave of shoulders,

as an uncle, tiptoe on a chair, shoots video,
a close-up of the bridegroom's face,
then the shudder

as the walls implode, target engaged. The Secretary of Defense,
wire rims glinting, nods at the speakerphone & coughs.

III.

EXAM ROOM SIX

Glazed eyes, vomiting since morning, the fever
by nighttime 103, then the seizure

wracking Jake against the crib rails.
Advil, Pedialite the color of piss.
Cold towels

to his forehead & now the midnight ER,
breathing shallow, his brother asleep on my shoulder,

N. in tears before the gum-smacking orderly, when our turn
gets bumped by
another OD & a gunshot wound,

But now the intern has them in Exam Room Six
while I stay on with sleeping Luke

& three Toshibas bolted to the wall, sound off
on a Bush campaign ad,
Air Force One soaring down from clouds

Like the opening of Triumph of the Will, the ferret face in slow
dissolve.
What case, what tactics,
can we now present against the deluge?

IV.

EMAIL

Loosen this guy up. Make sure he has a bad night.
Take away the mattress, clothes & sheets.

He'll break down real fast.
Make sure he gets the special treatment.

Take a few snaps of him if you want.
But loosen him up. Make sure he has a bad night.

Then he'll give out some real intelligence.
Let him lie there in his own sorry shit--

He'll break down real fast.
Wrap him in the hood & wrap it tight.

He won't know where the next hit's
coming from. Make sure he has a bad night.

The brass from Langley are coming tonight
& soldier, these guys need results.

He'll break down real fast
when you tape electrodes to his dick--

Sending an email is what we're calling it--
he'll loosen up. Make sure he has another bad night.

He'll break down real fast.

V.

GEORGE W. BUSH IN HELL

(Inferno, Canto XXVI)

Rejoice, America, risen to such glory
That over land & sea your eagle wings have flown
Imperiously, & all the depths of hell resound your story.

Among the caverns there, O sorrowful to set down,
I came upon many of your citizens, a fact
Which can bring no honor to your name.

Upon a blazing plain they lay; my guide picked
His way upon the bridge above, & meekly
Did I follow. Over geysering fires we trekked

& deep within each column of flame could we see
A figure in torment writhe. As on a June night,
When farmers of Vermont watch moon-bright fields seethe

With fireflies--teeming, darting lantern lights
In stands of soybean & corn--so it was then
That this eighth ditch gleamed, fire-tongues bright

As midnight LAX or Houston from a DC 10,
The landing wheels opening. The flames along the stygian floor
Streamed like interstate headlights, flaming ribbons.

My guide now spoke, sensing my fear. "There dwells
Within each flame a soul in permanent
Auto-da-fa, his sin an inexhaustible fuel,

An oil rig derrick blackening the firmament
With fires unquenchable. These are the givers
Of fraudulent counsel, whose arrogant

Disdain of truth has brought them here."
The flames like flashbulbs crackled the dark.
& as he spoke a single flame drew near.

Inside, a wavering face, lips parted as if to speak.
"Master," I inquired, "Can these shades
Converse with us? For this one I know & seek

To hear his sorrowful relation." My guide bade
The form approach: "This one is also familiar to me,"
He answered. "His deeds of infamy have made

His name renowned in hell. Princeling of a dynasty
Of blackguards, his forebears & brothers likewise burn
Within these terrible precincts." Then suddenly

From the white-hot pyre the face emerged
& spoke: "So great was my lust for power, to lead
My land as my father--now consigned also to these fires--

Had done before me, that I came to believe
In the God-ordained virtue of all my deeds.
Truth was my toy. No counsel could dissuade

My certainty, nor satisfy my cronies' greed.
For to exercise my zealotry I gave them leave
To pillage & bring havoc. Their coffers overflowed

With booty. O how deeply did we crave
To level Baghdad, to suck its oils dry.
That first night, when my pilots rained a spray

Of fire on its neighborhoods, I cried
For joy. I watched the smart bombs seek their prey
On a television screen three stories high,

Even my generals gasping--such dazzling display,
What thundering shock & awe had I made.
Great Babylon did grovel on its knees.

How mighty was my sword. What matter that so many died
Below, or in the months & years to follow.
My father was revenged, my longing assuaged,

& haughty I walked the West Wing hallways
To the Lincoln Bedroom, where I slept as deeply
As a man can sleep, my enemies laid low,

My apotheosis complete. But see where this has taken me,
Who brought two countries to shame & ruin.
My every cell is napalm. Take pity

On me, you who may leave this fiery tomb
& walk again among the living." With this
the flame drew back & took its place among

the woeful throng, the other flickering tapers.

VI.

CHILD'S DRAWING,
SPANISH CIVIL WAR

This one faceless, gazing skyward, that one
a circle & wobbly rectangle; the bodies,
limbless, strew the field. Cruz Roja workers

bear them on stretchers to the ambulance, its cross
& the tracer fire above bright scarlet, still
unfaded after seven decades. The houses,

jigsaw trapezoids, pulse jack-o-lantern teeth
that once were windows. Above & dwarfing everything,
a Condor Legion bomber, lavished with

the talismanically obsessive detail
children reserve for machinery--
landing flaps, propellers, Luftwaffe cross.

The boy who learned to draw by drawing death
is likely dead himself. Turbulence,
I close the book. We lock the tray tables

& the stewardess lurches down the aisle
collecting drinks, the pastures below, Ohio
or Indiana, a reasonable green

precision, N. asleep, the boys asleep,
a toy biplane cradled in Luke's lap.
The screens drop from the ceiling, unfurling

CNN before the movie starts, the bodies
of reservists, displayed before a charred Humvee,
courtesy Al-Jeezera, & more shots

of naked Iraqis, the corporal from West Virginia
in profile with a cigarette, pulling
her prisoner on a leash across cement.

Another image calculated to benumb,
& I am sick to death of calculation
& its body counts, pixels of the maimed

emerging from computer screens, while the plane
thrashes, & the boys twitch in sleep.
What case, what tactics, can we now

present against the deluge? What blind reckoning?
A boy stands in a field & the bomber comes in low,
its shadow a black cross pulsing

& for an instant he is pinned within its center,
engines thrumming, before the plane streaks on
to Guernica or Malaga. Crossroads,

crosshairs, the hurricane's eye & I am back
to a date three years ago, a white room
in a windowless clinic, fumbling with a plastic cup,

my pants on a hook beside a stack of Penthouses;
such a strange locale for a rite, my come
streaking the beaker's sides, & the two cells

setting forth among the throng, then Petrie dish
& egg, & N., legs splayed against the stirrups,
then sonogram, the spiraling craniums

of Baby A & Baby B: What case,
what tactic, what rite? Exfoliation
& its psalms: twenty fingers opening

in amniotie brine & opening still
even as the night comes on, & beside me now
my voyagers thrash, belted to their seats,

selah selah selah. The cabin lights
flicker & the plane bucks,
but their sleep is unperturbed.

Saturday, September 24, 2005

The Truth

Friday, September 23, 2005

What were

the three best poetry readings you've ever been to?

For me:

1. Phil Levine, Virginia Museum of Fine Arts, 2003
2. Yusef Komunyakaa, Virginia Commonwealth University, 1999
3. Mary Ruefle, Virginia Commonwealth Univeristy, 2002

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Honeymoon? Over.

I guess you could say I'm in the post honeymoon phase. The initial buzz of excitement is fading, and the reality of being 7,000 miles from home is setting in. I really miss my dogs--cry myself to sleep, miss my dogs. I miss Danny, of course, but he's been in the merchant marines for 15 years, so we're used to being apart. Plus, I talk to him every night. I miss my friends, but we email every day. But the dogs.... Before now I'd never even spent a night away from them.

My hopes were to bring them over, but I'm beginning to see that that might not be realistic. The climate, and the culture are both hostile to dogs. They're afraid of dogs here. Even small dogs. And my dogs are not small. They're big, and powerful, and energetic. They're used to going to Bryan Park every day where they run, unleashed, for hours. There's nowhere here for them to go. On top of that, there's not much in the way of vet care. Selfishly, I want them here anyway, but I have to think of them, and I know they'd be happier in Richmond. So the plan for now is for Danny to keep them when he's not on a ship. When he has to ship, or when he's here, they'll stay at doggy daycare. The owners of the daycare are wonderful, and they love Toby and Maya. It's not a perfect solution, but I know it's the best for them. I'll get to spend Christmas break, and summer with them. I'm counting the days already.

On the upside, I'm really enjoying teaching here. The girls are great fun. They have tons of energy. The halls are always ringing with laughter. It's a bit like being at an all girl's camp, very giggly, gossipy and intense.

The people I work with at VCU-Q are incredible. I've been amazed by how kind and generous everyone has been.

But, damn I miss my dogs....
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Here's some pics of Doha.













Sunday, September 11, 2005

National Buffoons New Orleans Vacation

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Silent

Silent, because it seems frivolous to talk about the preoccupations of my daily life in the face of such tragedy.

Silent as we watched CNN. The images, one after another, relentless despair, desperation, devastation.

Post after post erased. I don’t know what to say, or how to say it.

Concentrating on the practical, helps. We’re raising funds here in Education City. It’s something. Better, I guess, than silence.

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Flickr'ed at Last!

Finally, I was able to upload photos. There are sets of the villa, of VCU-Q, and of the new kitties.




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Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Writing Baggage Is Universal

I had my first two classes yesterday, and they both went pretty well. I was nervous at the beginning of the first class, but I settled down. I read their diagnostic prompts, which asks about their prior writing experience, and they seem to have the same writing difficulties and fears as U.S. kids. Like American kids they confuse grammar with thinking. I have to convince them that grammar is not thought. Grammar is mechanical, not creative. You can have terrible grammar, and be a brilliant thinker and writer. Once you get the ideas flowing, and down on paper, you can go back and fix the mechanical stuff. They wrote of being blocked by the internal critic that emerges the second pen hits papers. Hopefully, by teaching them how to reliably generate writing through free writing, clustering, looping and listing they can become less intimidated by the blank page. So much of teaching writing is overcoming writing baggage, and it seems writing baggage is universal. If you can make a person a more confident writer, I think they become a better writer.

Most of my students wear the black abaya with veil. Abaya are gorgeous, often with elaborate embroidered work. They have a beautiful and fluid drape, and the students seem to float down the hallways.



I rescued two kittens. They don't make me stop missing my pups, but they're sweet and cuddly, and it's nice not to come home to an empty house. I got a male and a female. The male is named Nitro, and the female is Tay-gee, which is the Korean word for pig. There are cats all over the place here. They brought them in many years ago to kill mice, and now the cat population is out of control. It's sad to see so many strays, especially in this heat. Every morning there are cats sprawled in front of the doors at VCU trying to catch some A/C. Someone set up a cat cafe in the courtyard where they can get food and water. We all chip in to have them spayed and neutered, and for their food and vet
care.

It's 114 degrees today, with 66% humidity.

Monday, August 29, 2005

Knees Knockin'

I teach for the first time in about an hour, and I am seriously nervous. I can't remember the last time I was nervous before class. I'm teaching two sections of ENGL101, and have a total of 24 students.

There are 185 students (all female) enrolled at VCU-Q. They represent 60 countries, and about 60% are from Qatar. VCU-Q offers degrees in design and fashion. I love wandering the hallways here and looking at the student projects. VCU-Q srudents designed the Qatar Foundation Trophy of Courage, and the new logo for Al-Seef, a subsidiary for Qatar Petroleum. VCU-Q graduates are currently working with the Emiri Diwan, the Ministry of Municipal Affairs and Agriculture, Ministry of Civil Service Affairs and Housing, Qatar National Hotels Company, Qatar Tourism, Al Jazeera Children's Channel, and for the upcoming 2006 Doha Asian games.

VCU-Q is located in within Doha, in Education City. The Qatar Foundation is bringing over the number one schools in a variety of programs. Cornell, Carnegie Mellon, and Texas A&M are also in Education City.

I'm settling in fairly well, though the not having a computer at home is killing me. No TV either. On the upside, I'm getting a ton of writing and reading done.

It's 111 degrees right now, with 68% humidity.

Monday, August 22, 2005

"Toto, I have a feeling we're not in Kansas anymore."

Got off the plane in Doha last Sunday, and it's been go, go, go ever since. It reminds me a lot of when I was in bootcamp, but without the yelling and PT. I'm still trying to get in the right time zone. I find myself waking up at 3:00am. It gets dark here around 6:00pm, and light at around 4:00am. And did I mention that it's effin hot!? AND HUMID!!! Qatar is surrounded on three sides by water. Stupid water. Luckily the house has a screaming A/C system.

Speaking of the house; it's incredible. Huge living area, and dining room, very roomy kitchen, 4 large bedrooms (the master has walk-ins, and a balcony), 5 bathrooms (!!) cathedral ceilings, and a very nice patio area. I live in a compound with other VCU profs. It's nice to have other VCU'ites around. They've all been amazingly helpful, and kind.

Doha itself is crazy lavish. It's easy to see why Qatar is the richest country in the world. I've never seen so much wealth concentrated in one area. I've heard that Doha has the best shopping in the world, and I believe it now. And oh, gas is 79 CENTS a gallon.

VCU-Q is beautiful, a far cry from Hibbs (the English Dept. building at VCU-Richmond,) though right now I even miss stinky-ole-broke-down-Hibbs. I've had a few weepy "I want to go home" episodes. but all in all, I'm hanging in there.

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Over Much!

Well, I made it!

No computer access in the house yet. One has to be a Qatari resident to get a phone line, so it'll be at least a month or so before I'm hooked. I do have a computer in my office, but I'm being whisked around so much I haven't had a chance to do more than check email. There are 4 other new faculty members, and we're being constantly moved from one thing to another. This morning it was blood testing, and picture taking. This afternoon was spent learning about the benefit packages. Benefits!! The only benefit I had when I was an adjunct was use of the copy machine.

The flight over was grueling, and I'm still reeling with jetlag. Feels like the worst hang over I've ever had.

Qatar is gorgeous. And yes, it is seriously hot. 104 degrees at 10:30 pm last night. And humid too, since Qatar is almost surrounded by water. Driving here is another thing all together. It's like a sport. A blood sport. The highest rate of car fatalitiesin the world is in Doha.

Well, now it's time for me to go to an orientation session. My head is spinning!

Saturday, August 13, 2005

A Long Ride



I leave for Qatar tomorrow afternoon.
6,995 miles.
22 hours in the air.
Hopefully the next post will be from Doha!

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

FOUR DAYS!!!!!!

In FOUR days I leave for Qatar.

FOUR.

Days.

Qatar.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(for the original Qatar post click here.)

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Ipods Are Freakin Amazing!

I had NO idea.

What was the first song you put on your Ipod?
Mine was Prince's Purple Rain.


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